Drug of Love

You strut across the bar

As if we should all know who you are

With your gorgeous blue eyes and blonde hair

You act so debonair

So you lock your eyes on me and make your move

Your enchanting words beg to woe

But I am immune to your charms

Until you hold me in your arms

I stare into your beautiful face

My heart suddenly begins to race

You kiss the my neck’s nape

And then it’s all to late

This can’t be happening to me

I promised I would be free

But I am an addict to this drug

And the drug is LOVE.

As a young girl I found people who fell in love to be irrational. I found love for a lack of a better explanation to be a form of insanity. And yet oddly enough I couldn’t explain why so many people around me suffered from this form of mental illness. I was certain that there would be a cure like there is for Polio. And one day we would all get a shot and be over it.

But until that day came I was never going to fall in love. I would never allow myself to fall into the same delusions which people suffered around me. And I fought it all through High School and I poured myself into my studies and into refining myself.

The better part of my life I have been avoiding falling in love because I believe it to be a biochemical process in our brains that has an anthropological explanation more then an actual phenomena. I know that isn’t very romantic but that is how I have felt about love for the majority of my life. I am not guard just rational which again is not very romantic.

When we are in love our brain gives off certain chemicals which makes us believe we are happy. It is really that simple. Love is a biochemical phenomena in the brain. I am as certain of this today as I was when I was a child. And all of us have tendencies to be romantic fools. So again I have tried t spare myself this humiliation. While Shakespeare might have thought it is better to love and lost he wasn’t exactly referring to one’s mind which often goes in states of bliss.

So I have been dodging that bullet my entire life. I am only abnormal in my behavior in that I am a female trying to dodge that bullet. Men do it all the time and no one bats an eye. They call them “Confirmed Bachelors”.

And as much as I have rationalized never falling in love and never letting myself be bound to love. I have a child. So apparently I got the love drug unintentionally along the way. And yes, I was irrational at the time as well. Fortunately I can report I have made a full recovery and will never ever fall in love again.